Food For Thought

A few days ago I had too much time for myself that I did some Googling on the net.

I had this peculiar feeling that I can find things by typing names on Google just for fun.

As usual, it started with some kind of idea I myself had and then I tried it out after months of thinking about it and then procrasinating about it. However, in the spur of the moment I just typed something and the result came out was quite surprising.

I used of course names of people I knew, and then at a sudden, I felt like typing his name. And the result Google gave me was quite surprising.

It gave me this:
blogging life Let’s save out world together! Posted by Jack Lim Wei Li at 12:21 PM 1 comments .... About Me. Jack Lim Wei Li. View my complete profile.weili88-jack.blogspot.com/ - 51k - Cached - Similar pages

Then again, there's too many people using that name. Heck, even Weiqi has a one alphabet difference. I did joke about that to her: " One alphabet is all it takes for me to smile at or punch you." I didn't know how she took it. But as I said, it's a joke. If I wanted to punch him I would've done so long ago. I did nothing then, remember? I just sat there like an idiot, did nothing but just made myself even more miserable needlessly.

To me, blogs are like public diaries that allow people to voice their opinions, views and even sometimes, things that we don't really feel like saying to people we would want them to know. That is why we have nicknames, or IDs that try to anonymize us from being identified immediately. Somehow it sounds seditious to talk behind people's backs but it would be better if we spoke out and find an outlet rather than penting it all up inside until we go crazy. Regardless on how shitty that person is, we let the public decide. I present the arguements, people decide.

I read a lot of people's blogs, and I'm not ashamed to publish mine. I'm not proud of myself having to write out everything like that, sometimes to the extent of it being so uninteresting and lame that I feel a need to change. But I'm really proud to say that I have not lied to myself or made any malicious remarks without proof. Whatever I have said have been true to the emotions and facts I have in that period of time. Things may change later on, but blogs are things that happen at the spur of the moment. You can't just keep updating it like:

So-and-So is an A**e**le(23/7/08) 12pm

then,

Update: So-and-So is more than an A**e**le(23/7/08) 3pm

Then, Update 2: So-and-So is an A**e**le, but he sent me flowers.(24/7/08) 8am



then...


Update 3: So-And-So is no longer an A**e**le...I lup him sooooooo much....muaxxxxx(24/7/08) 10pm....


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This is my emoticon for wu-liao-ness.

Can you imagine a person updating herself again and again? Well if he annoys her again it's going to be

So-and-So is an A**e**le(25/7/08) 12pm

all over again


Therefore do not question my thoughts after that. Views of people change after time. Even I don't agree with myself sometimes. Maybe I should comment myself later.
I love reading blogs. Each person has a different agenda. Some love to write about things they do everyday, like a diary.


Some would go somewhere interesting and blog about it. The pictures and their experiences are more more valuable than those travel guides shown on TV. I didn't even know about places like Krabi, or those New Zealand isles Kenny visited until i read about them. Somehow I felt like I went travelling with them. Somehow I felt I knew more about the world. Yet people ask me why I seem so knowledgable, I can say blogging and reading them really do help.


I love those who blog about food, especially those who call themselves floggers(food-bloggers). They would take pictures they always look appetizing, and yet, still complain how bad it is. Or, they would rave about it so much that they would back it up with other blogs. Somehow watching those posts about things I've eaten before or I wouldn't have dared to try myself would cheer me up more than the food here could.
Anyhow, blogs aren't as felicitious as what the corrupt government say it is. Not all, at least.


Reading his blog, I had hoped to at least read his thoughts or even have any hint of anything on his mind at the very least. I don't always brand people as they are and not change my thinking at all. I do give chances for people to change and I do try to reason people out no matter what they did to me. Unfortunately I found nothing. Things he wrote showed only the trained essays students used to do, and I don't mean to demean it, it looked rather lifeless and not lively at all. Perhaps I do still wear a certain tint in my glasses while reading it. Or maybe it is so.


I even googled myself, and even her to see if my luck would work as well. Unfortunately both of us share the same thing. We, unlike him, would not publish our name so publicly on domains or accounts. Therefore finding myself is virtually impossible, though i might not be so sure since anything might happen in those last few pages I did not scrutinize. Neither could I look for traces of her, probably getting to read her blog too, to no avail. Though she doesn't seem like a person who would blog, then again, I withold those doubts until proven.


There's this song that I've always had in my MP3 player regardless of any situation, and every time I hear it i get goosebumps, and the lyrics have made me cried, and it still does. Its one of those songs that never dies in my heart, and reflects it so clearly.


Have You Ever-S Club 7
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round


Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go


Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round


Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go


I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)

Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go


I did feel like my eyes welled up with tears again playing that song just now. Some people won't understand it at all and would just be annoyed at me for writing this post. Then again, I don't expect anybody to, because like I said, this is my outlet. Comments are just icings on a cake.