Abrupt Transmission

Honestly, the previous post caught me off guard.

My 1st reaction was

OMFG

Felt like writing for days but no mood. Apparently exams are coming soon so it would seem smart to study than to write. Then again, I don't think I made much progress. Therefore, writing won't hurt much.

I cannot understand why, whenever my friends are around I just can't study. But apparently with them all either away or catching up on sleep I immediately do thousands of times better with them.

With music, the reaction increases. Can you believe that? One song that i just downloaded of the net could stimulate my mind and make it understand Statics which a few days ago I have no idea what I was doing.

Either L'arc-en-Ciel are good stimulants, or I'm just easily stimulated by music.

Therefore I'm forcing myself to download anything at random and see how I react.

Hoho, I feel refreshed!! Music really cures me more than all the crap food we go to makan everyday!!

That's it, I can declare myself somebody who cannot live without music.

Screw food. Music is my food. Oh no, can't say that i've been making myself eat stuff while watching food blogs like Motormouth From Ipoh and Ipoh Mali. I really miss home T.T, ahem i mean the food.

Maybe Jesse.

Beware, she looks innocent but she's a cunning dog who sheds crocodile tears XD

Siapa kata she fat hah?!

It's no wonder i get thinner and thinner. I've been feeding on music!

Read a post from Kenny Sia about his trip to Bali. I can't believe Bali is somewhere u can get pork. That Babi Guling Ibu Oka is so appetizing...zomfg i've always wanted to go to Bali once. Regardless of whether i would be bombed. Who cares anyway kena bomb ma bomb lo wtf.

I see this pic i adi wanna try...T.T

But then again Japan is another good idea. New Zealand also not bad. Or Europe! Swt my family now recession la...aish.

Ok la go back to studies. Maybe after the exams i'll be posting on several stuff i've delayed due to lack of photos or the blogger himself takde patience finish it.

Anyway it's just a reason for me to gtg.

PS: Munkey, please identify urself wor. Sked alot of people weih, haha.

PPS: Pray hard for me mom, coz i really dun think i'm in a good position now.

Sorry...

Yui out.

Rude Invasion

I know this is abrupt.

I haven't even properly introduced myself.

But then.

I had this urgent well, urge to rant. So, here we are, me typing out my rants, you reading the rants of a complete stranger while thinking who the f*** is this???

Ever wished you had the ability to read other people's minds? Ever wished that humans could be less complicated than evolution made us to be??
Ever wished there were no such things as standards set by the society??
Ever wished you could just bash someone in the head, dig out his/her brains, scrutinise every neuron carefully--a process which seemed to be less complicated than trying to guess what's going on inside instead???

Well, come find moi, and togetehr we can devise plans on how to dissect other people's skulls and brains without getting jailed by laws(none other than the results society's standards again)

Just stop fucking with my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!STOP IT!!!!LEAVE IT ALONE!!!!!
Leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*takes deep breath*

Okay that's all I wanna say.

:) its a beautiful day, beautiful world, with beautiful people. :)

Thats all.

Equations

Exam mood...so this is a short post.

So upset i'm not doing what i'm supposed to do that whole semester. Slacking and stuff. It would take a miracle to pass everything right now. Sigh.

See mom? I'm studying now.

This is Maths.

Chemistry. (Even though I'm only going to do Materials next sem wtf)

Statistics(Dunno why, also not my subject, but study interest ma... :p )

Electrical and Electronic Engineering(nah...something more to what I study).

See, I even write my aims. Am so pumped up to do work now..^^

Bwahahahahaha...funny leh! Got this email from someone, it's soooooo true.

Ok back to studies. IF not kena supplementary exam I die ler... T.T

I love My Beanie!!!

Dunno what's wrong with people nowadays...

Recently bought a beanie from a trip during mid-sem break. (Yes, i had the guts to move around even though most people are catching up on their studies during that period of time.) I thought it looked okay so i bought it as a souvenier and the only hat that I could look good wearing on.

Since then, I wore it on days where it was abit chilly, or when I had woke up late and my hair was going all over the place, and the easiest and most viable solution was to wear the beanie.

Me in my beanie=Terrorist??

Swt wtf, I wished my wild hair would turn into something like this instead, then I wouldn't be wearing anything at all.

Usually it turns out like this....

Now now, don't panic. That's just me after a shower. Thought I'd scare you guys. Haha XD

Isn't that terrifying?

That makes me a "terror-ist" then XD

Seriously, i've just jeapordized any potential partners with this pic, though wth. It's me, hate me, f*** off.

So now, Desmond who is my coursemate suddenly said to me that I looked like a terrorist with that beanie on. Now being someone from China, I couldn't blame him, probably he never even seen a terrorist before, well if the Tibetians and Taiwanese aren't counted, maybe he didn't, but you can say i was abit annoyed with that.

WHY WHY WHY must I be equated to a Terrorist?

Me the smiling terror-ist...me smiling terrifies everyone....

It's not like I look like one, do I look like one?

Eh...you are a LWL supporter...I bomb u later i tell u ha!

If you don't know how a terrorist looks like, then this is a good guideline.

The epitome of terrorism...OBL

Or even this.

Or even this....

Sorry Suet Li mempergunakan you again...XD (She doesn't even know me and I'm using her as reference twice...) I'm so dead.

Anyhow, it's just a stupid outburst. How can a nice little beanie make me one of the most dangerous man on Earth?

Me planning a terror plot...to consume all siew yoke at BBQ restaurant!!!

Might as well go tie a bomb on my waist and walk around shouting "Allahuakhbar!" (God Is Great in Arabic) and go kapoof like Worms.

It's just bothers me.

Wouldn't you?

About A, B, AB and O Blood types...

Was on the way making my own post before a rare email from Chocolate popped up and I suddenly thought that this would make an interesting post...well since Weiqi complain i try to copy our dear Suet Li, T.T (PS sorry Suet Li if u marah dun sue me...i got no money) XD

I would like to present the pictures 1st and let them speak for themselves...

Honestly, if I knew where this came from, I would totally do a reference list and give credits to the original contributorm but since this is something that came to me from an email, I'll have to apologize if i've infringed any copyrights at all.

Now the thing with blood types is not only about the difference in the rhesus or the A or B antigens present in your haemogloblin. It has also become a part where girls try to peek at your medical books to try and see what kind of person you are by their web-generated or magazine-related tests(I know all those women or pop mags usually have something like this to fill their pages with more crap, like that magazine my sister worked for XD) I myself was once addicted to it because i tried so hard to explain to myself why she was like that. Talk about irony, I did peek at her medical records, so apparently the only thing I lacked was her T.O.B(time of brith) if not i would've plotted a whole love chart just to see what happens...hmm...omg i'm saying something that sounds so wrong and sick, but hey, who wouldn't do that when you're somehow obsessed with someone?

Oh well, that was last time, even if i had it now I wouldn't be bothered by it at all. Would I?

Say that u're not obssesed with her anymore, say it!

........

This reminds me of something my mom and I always teased each other(okay, another proof of me being gay, i'm very close to my mom and I talk to her like my friend, c'mon, brand me a gay!) That she always claimed that me and my siblings are so unlike her was due to the fact that all of us were not of the same blood type as her. Due to the fact that my mom believes that her husband, a.k.a. my Dad is some kind of a slob(I think he's like Homer Simpson, but does Homer have B blood?) and similliarly, we show slob-like traits. That she blames both the genetic dominance of my dad, and also the blood type we share with him.

She usually equates B-blood to BODOH. Which literally means "stupid" in Malay.

Just because B is for Bodoh.

She usually say like that: " You all B-Blood punya...haiz...tak boleh harap." (Translation: All of you that have B-Blood Type are all unreliable")

Therefore I rebutted by telling her that in the word "BODOH" there are 2 O's. By definition of weightage in maths, O has more weightage on the word "bOdOh". Therefore, those who are O-blooded should be more likely bOdOh. XD

Therefore i usually call her bOdOh woman, since she was "bOdOh" enough to marry my B-blooded -slob-like dad and keeps complaining to me about this.

Talk about rudeness, but she doesn't really mind, since I told her I was also a product of her bOdOhness, therefore I am entitled to conduct some extremely BOdOh actions, oh don't make me mention them again, you know the roll call.

That means everyone of us in the family are BOdOh... T.T

My mom has even told me that she's really looking forward which girl who would be so BOdOh enough to marry me and join the BOdOh family...But honestly, would I even consider anyone now? I'm even fit to have a girl at all...let alone maintain a relationship.

I think that is why I've never bothered to start something new with anyone, and that causes the misunderstanding of me seemingly "waiting".

As a result of my waiting, I've let four potentially good matches away. 2 back then during last year and 2 more right here. Eventually 3 of them hooked up. Two of them just recently.

Both of them asked for my opinion towards their new partner and it reminded me about something I did previously. Where I was asked my views of a piece of crap.

Indefinitely, I said:"He's not the type of guy that you would see having long-term relationships, besides, if you're unsure or having someone taken away, why not stay single? It's not like you cannot live without love." I said that. Even though I should've said something else to launch myself forward.

Did it make a difference? She still went ahead and got her butt kicked.

Therefore, my new answer was:" As long as you feel that he's the one, what does my opinion matter? You're just asking to reassure yourself if you've made the right decision. Only you know the answer whether he's right. What I think may not be what you think. But since you've made the decision to accept him, it's your responsability. Besides, this is the point of dating, getting to know each other. But no matter what happens, good luck and congratulations."

See? I did learn from my past mistakes.

I don't go bad-mouth even crap, I should let women find out if they are crap.

They say B-Blooded Leos are even more selfish and self-centered than the other antigen counterparts. Worse than that, I've heard in Japan, artists are not only considered on their looks, voice, dancing capability, personality, etc. They're also considered on what type of blood-type they are. With the "A" tyoe as the main criteria as well. Face it, go find the profiles of Gackt, Takuya Kimura, etc etc. This is sad.

Talk about sexist, this is bloodist.

I wonder if Hard Gay(Right) is A-blood type as well?

Does having what blood type dictate what a person you're supposed to be? That is so unfair!

Might as well drain all my blood and go for a blood tranfusion just to enter "Johnny's".

I've always wondered where my dad's side originated, as it was common to hear that Chinese having "O" instead of the weird "B", they say it's either from the Malays or god knows what.

Wait a minute, does that mean i'm partially one??!

I claim "Ketuanan Melayu"! XD

Oh god puh-lease. I wouldn't want those crotches if it were begged to be fixed upon me. I'm a Chinese, and I'd want nothing better than that. That is, if I couldn't be a Caucasian... I like my pork!

Tell me how could anyone resist this???

Besides, my great-grandfather was a merchant from China, so we can say that I've no proof that I'm something else than a Chinese.

What if I was from some tribesmen that originated from Mongolia? They did conquer China before.

Does that mean I'm a huge, violent rider from the north and I'm supposed to go around raiding, living as a nomad?

That wouldn't be too bad right? That means I'll have Genghis Khan as my ancestor. XD

Dun Play Play! I'm a part of the Golden Horde!

Yawn. No proof, yet again.

This sucks.

I'm just some BOdOh guy specualating his ancestral roots. The only thing I'm certain is I'm somehow, most possibly be related to China's biggest traitor. Sharing the same surname, it's quite obvious isn't it?

Similarly, birthdates are also something girls like to compare and use for "research" under star signs. This, apparently is much more easier compared to having to suck blood from someone and doing a blood test just to find out the blood type. Besides, that's the point of horoscope right? What's the use of a blood type when you don't even know the DOB of that person?

If that is so, I'm linked to two very prominent people in this era. One of them is someone that I'm very proud to declare and to everyone, especially footie fans. Since he's the most successful captain in the Club's history. When he plays, they play. If you wanna know more, read here.

Be afraid, be very afraid...

While the other one...erm...isn't someone I would like to brag about. But he shares similiarity with the previous. Having the never-say-die atitude and being very charismatic, it's something i really should emulate, though, not his "interesting" encounters. Plus he was a huge factor in the recent elections. Need to say more?

He's smiling because Hard Gay just did a lap dance in front of him.

Don't get me wrong. Both of them have had the capability to change the world. I wonder if having the same birthdate would entitle me the same destiny as well?

I would also enquire how many girls could claim that their horoscope-picked boyfriend matched their expectations? Neither sign is inferior to another. Doesn't mean that being under the star sign of Leo made me any better. That piece of garbage is not any better since he's at the same star sign. I wonder if i would be the exact same a*****le as he is?

Oh don't get me started on chinese horoscpoes T.T...about rabbits and dragons etc etc...

I recall the nights when i sat with my mom watching Taiwanese fortune telling shows discussing about things from money to love to health et al. Things like I've never heard before like BaZi and ZiWeiDouShu appeared. Then I realised that the horoscopes have begun to go out of hand.

Everything from accidents to meetings and interviews have been dictated by horoscopes. I wonder if going to the toilet at the most optimum time would also bring more "GOLD" into the house.

In that case my dad would be the 1st to respond. Typical B-Blood, if my mom would presume.

Blood-type is just something that should be left for medical or biological purposes instead of being a gauge towards somebody's atitude or selection of employees. If a tye of blood is branded as 'bad', then a huge population in the world would have to be exterminated for this matter.

Get real people, it's just an antigen. It cannot make your life any better.

It only makes u jealous towards another horoscope sign's fortune and divides people. Not many realise that there's a balance for every one of them. Doesn't mean that you're a Pisces you're not allowed to lead. Doesn't mean that you're a Libra and u gotta be the most sociable person around. It also depends on your upbringing, beliefs and the spur of a moment, not to mention tons of other factors that i cannot think up now.

Believe me, it's just good enough for reference. Having to refer it makes u look nothing better than shaking the 8 ball and asking for answers.

Nonetheless. Maybe I should go refer my horoscopes, read the stars and see if I'm going to get a lot of response for this post?

Sweat Betul.....WTF

Things hadn't been going well for me these few days...

I mean my plan to study during my break had gone awry, making me rush my assignments on the last day and having to stand on the bus stop for half an hour just to get back. Having the wind howling at me made me realise how thin t-shirts are, and i had just weighed myself that day and i was only 68kg.

68kg

That's how much i weighed during Form One.

OMFG i am underweight for the 1st time in my life.

I just seem to get thinner and thinner. Probably because i skipped meals and usually used this to punish myself whenever i missed a class or just did something that was off my decision. Apparently i do make a lot of mistakes. I just don't seem to learn from it.

Speaking of mistakes, i missed my test today. I woke up ten minutes into the test time and the 1st thing i did was to punch myself in the face and then tell myself i will pay for all my stupidity. Burning the midnight oil really doesn't pay off at all. My mom called and i can feel the dissapointment she has and it made me feel even worse. I just simply couldn't make myself to function properly. I even wanted to punish myself by skipping two meals but i told myself that if i don't feed myself, whatever punishment i implement wouldn't help me in my studies at all, i'm not a fuel cell, i need food to generate all the fuel to do what i want.

Ever since Form 6 my body mass had been decreasing, while i did gain a bit during my workdays, but then it went down again after i went to Uni. I felt that the pressure of learning and having to do alot of things by myself very daunting and the lazy bug just keeps telling me to procrasinate. The weather doesn't seem to help as well. I don't really bother cooking now since all i cook is for myself and when i do cook, i just whip up something for everyone. The last time i did this was to make a Thai Green Curry with diced chicken, and a chicken stew, bearing in mind one of my friends is taboo to beef(like he cares at all) I was super pleased with what i did and would really look forward to moving out with them and having them as guinea pigs. Bwahahahahahahaha....(swt wtf i can't fin the pics i took about my food!!)

Nough said. I really seem to be in a bad run these days. Had arguements with four girls. One i had to call back and clear things out. Then i was in a super bad mood and just snapped at one until she was super upset and ignored me. Apologized and situation cleared. Then there was weiqi yesterday when i told her about something she didn't know back in my hell-ish days. I commented on her blog post about her view after i had told her the story from my side. I never knew what she went through when i saw she had some kind of dread towards something. Eventually she gave up and demanded that i never mention that issue to her anymore.

Things doesn't seem to go right at all. My studies is stumped, having social problems, health problems and even sleep problems. I really feel like whatever determination i had just dissipated under the chilly wind. I really felt that i had lost all the desire to work and realise my aim. I felt like distance has finally got on to me, and there's nothing to hold me back or spur me on anymore.

I felt like as if the feelings not there anymore.

Maybe i really had forgotten about her.

When i talked to weiqi about that matter i felt as if i was telling a story. I don't feel the tears when i told minjie or shirley or my other friends about it. It still bugs me, but it doesn't do as much damage as it did before. Things just, milded.

I'm not happy about this at all.

I had this vision of realizing what i want and going back to change things. Set the business straight, probably get back at those who crossed me. But now, i felt like i can just live on without setting the balance straight, which is preposterous and something i will not tolerate myself to give in.

If Daniel Powter's had a bad day, i had a bad week. Probably a bad month as well. Now i gotta mail my tutor Luke Balzan and see if he can help me deal with my test. If not, serves me right. I really do feel so, i brought it all to myself. Similiarly like what happened back then. serves me right.

PS: Sweat betul...wtf...is my motto, it annoys Wilson and everyone, usually they just demand that i stop it, but i'd just tell them to stop making me sweat!

FITna-ah (My version)

It’s been a long time since I stepped into my blog since my outburst a few weeks ago. Went on a trip, ate some gorgeous food, especially Gelato and came back with good memories and new friends. For a moment, my life seemed perfect. I can’t help but grudge time for going so fast, and by the time I noticed, I was going back and my old worries came back to me again.

Actually, I am supposed to do a review about the list of Anime I’ve watched. Noticed the amount of anime I have been exposed by my friends, which is more than any anime I have watched in my entire lifetime!!! I’m seriously going to be branded an “otaku” if I don’t snap myself out of this soon. But I guess my trip as negated the effect somehow.

Still, I can’t help but introduce some of the anime I’ve watched, because they have accompanied me when everything seemed gray, and they actually made me think after watching them. Some of them are really meaningful, some of them are just slapstick comedy just to cheer me up. Mind you, I’m a depressed person. Usually I have to cheer myself up or I will just make my already sour face curdle more milk into cheese instead. I might even end up with some Gorgonzola like those torrid times I had in Form Six. ‘Nough said, I HATE Form 6, and thinking about it just makes me want to puke whenever I see anyone claiming U6F1 of 2006 was one of the best classes. In fact, we were crap and most of us just screwed Chemistry, how do I know? Being a Chemistry teacher in my school, I had to take the flak and answer Pn. Ng’s query about what appalling results we got. So shut up about how good it was. We sucked in class co-ordination, we have idiots running the class administration, and having nonsensical people disrupting the classes we had. Not to mention the crap play we created. I bought the disc, but I never even wanted to watch my own play that I had put so much effort into. What is there to be proud of? Not to mention having to sit on the floor after some crap idiot taking away my seat just because he had no sense of brain at all.(I personally believe that he did it on purpose because he got shifted to another table and had to take mine so that he can sit beside her and also kick me out, killing two birds with one stone.) Now even my most prominent blog reader is his best friend.

OMG

What the hell has this world gone into?

I’m actually making friends with the enemy.

I’m fraternizing with the people who think garbage is gold.

Might as well go say hi to him and hug him and thank him for showing what a dick I am and suck his **lls like Gillian Chung.

I keep living in the past aren’t I?

I came across something I saw on someone else’s T-Shirt saying this: "We can’t live in the past, but the past lives within us."

I hate my past. But it keeps me from straying. I don’t wish to remember it. But I remember it because it reminds me of things I should do and should not do so that I would not fail again.
I’ve even made friends with a fool that blasted me 5 minutes into a conversation. I was being polite and trying to at least get to know someone before even giving them anything personal. This fool (so shall we quote this person from now on) made an abrupt entrance by giving me a good blast for all the courtesy I give. Somehow this reminds me of the fact that being nice pays nothing at all.

In fact I’m not surprised that this happened. Especially from knowing someone who is BFF to garbage.

Sometimes I get so fed up with people using hormone imbalance as an excuse to say why they said the wrong things when they were cranky, or when they did something wrong, or to get away with any activity they don’t feel like doing so (especially swimming). I wish I can feel how much hormonal upheavals they experience to even guess why they have the liberty to even unleash their imbalance on people with no consideration at all.

Then if I may ask, if one can launch hormonal imbalances towards people, horny men should also vent their sexual frustration on people as well? Stimulations such as these are also caused by hormonal imbalances secreted by the glands and since it is a hormonal imbalance, why is this expression checked? Is it because it actually causes harm towards someone? Fair enough.

If that is so, then being traumatized by hormonal-imbalanced ranting also needs checking. This also causes serious trauma towards innocent people who are passing by and subjugated or forced upon to listen and be victims of half of the population in this world? Why should one have the liberty to “rape” people’s ears and mind while the other is checked? If everyone can go all over the place and shove hormonal imbalances to everyone, there is one heck of a hormone tsunami we can make to hit around the world ten times over. We might even use this as our solution towards fuel shortage with all the potential energy it can unleash.

Having fits or being unhappy doesn’t mean one can just get away by claiming hormonal imbalance. You have the right to be unhappy, but you cannot force me to be as unhappy as you. Fair enough, I do not have to be unhappy just because you tried to make me unhappy. But I have the right not to tolerate your unhappiness.

In fact this supposedly anime report has turned into another hormonal outburst.

Delete me off your Facebook account, MSN, like I care.

Go ahead and tell everyone what an ass or small-gassed person I am, like I care.

I do not believe in giving face just because you have two coconuts more and a banana less than me.

Like I said, I have the right not to tolerate anything I do not feel like it. I have my right to decide what I want to write. It’s unfortunate for you to even lay eyes on this article, too bad, my bad.
If anyone feels like taking a plunge after her, be my guest. I have no need of people who only wants to walk over me like a clumsy dinosaur and crap around like a fool.

It’s no wonder why they go extinct. Hormonal imbalance.*chuckles*